Hi, I am Krissy and I have been given the exciting opportunity to share my medical weight loss story with you.
I hope with each blog the words give you something that you can relate to and help you understand that you’re not alone in how you feel with the challenges of weight loss. I hope my words will encourage you to keep going forward, to make the changes that will ultimately change your life for the better. I can’t say it will be easy, it will always have its challenges and boy have I faced some challenges! But it’s how you deal with them and how you use the support around you to guide you through the tough times, that makes all the difference.
The Health & Aesthetics team have helped so many people to transform their lives through the medical weight loss program and even though I have not yet completed my journey, my life already feels a hundred times better. The clinic has designated therapist, who are very experienced and knowledgeable about the program and are there to support you. They have great advice to help you through any situation, especially social gatherings which require much will power and determination to remain in control.
At this moment in time I am 3 stone lighter and already feel like a different woman. I can walk up the stairs without feeling breathless, I no longer struggle to get my shoes on and no longer get hideous heartburn. I feel so much healthier. I still have another 5 stone to go but I feel determined. I am learning that’s its not just a physical adjustment but also a psychological one too. The program has made me stop and think about why I eat the way I do, recognise situations that trigger me to comfort eat, eat secretly or even binge until I felt disgusted in myself. Our relationship with food is a constant battle to those who love it and are even addicted to it. Its not as if we can just go cold turkey (pardon the pun!) and just stop eating, we need to eat to survive but why do I find it so hard to stop eating?
My journey so far has certainly not been smooth sailing, there has been a few curve balls thrown in the way, which have made me come off the program but certainly not for wanting too. Like many people out there I have tried every diet going and continually go through the cycle or losing weight, but then getting bored and putting all the weight back on and some more! I think they should call it emotional roller coaster diet not yoyo dieting because it has a devastating impact on your self esteem and self-worth. I was at most-lowest ever point when I heard about the medical weight loss program and was very sceptical that it was just another fad diet scheme trying to trick me out of my money…such a sucker when I believed there was an easy fix.
So hang tight and join me next time when I let you know what my first experience of my medical weight loss program was really like, its not what you might think…….
Chat soon, Krissy x
So, my first experience of this medical weight-loss program was two things- not at Health & Aesthetics and a horrendous experience! It was in a small beauty clinic locally and it took a lot of courage to contact them and make the first steps to hopefully changing my life.
On arrival at this other clinic, I had to sit in a cramped waiting room and fill out what felt like hundreds of forms including lots of questionnaires about my eating habits and my mental status, which made me feel like a complete failure because at that moment in my life I was not in a healthy state physically or mentally.
Once I had completed the forms, I was taken to what literally was a cupboard with the assigned therapist and we both crammed into this tiny space, which made me feel even bigger! It felt like I was Harry Potter hidden away in the cupboard under the stairs, where the unwanted belonged! Low and behold more forms to make my self-esteem dive a little lower and a very short explanation of the program before I had to decide if I was willing to commit to the program that I did not fully understand.
I agreed to go ahead but at the back of my head was full of doubt if I was doing the right thing, but I had to have my bloods first and then return, so I knew I could run if I wanted.
So once I agreed to go ahead, I was taken to another cupboard to get weighed, which if your overweight is not a fun-filled experience but having to step on scales which are situated in a tight corner, because you can just about fit on them without being shoved into the wall and yet again made to feel like a big fat waste of space.
Then I had to have my bloods taken and because I had been advised to fast before the bloods but not told that I could and should drink water, this made it difficult to take my bloods but even more difficult by someone who was not experienced at all and very nervous but of course it was the fat lady’s fault that she wasn’t easy to bleed, to say it was quite a painful and humiliating experience was an understatement. I was then told to return next week to try again but I took this as my chance to escape and never return. I soon as I left, I burst into tears, I felt traumatised and felt like I had the rug pulled out from me because I had such high hopes that this could be the answer to all my weight problems, but it was a disaster! And of course, now feeling at my lowest ebb, returned home and proceeded to eat in an attempt to make myself feel better.
So now at a loss about what to do, I talked to my partner about my experience and he suggested that I try another clinic. This did fill me with dread, but I had to try, I felt like I had nowhere else to turn. My partner has been my rock through this process. I am very lucky to have someone that I can talk to about how I feel. He understands and suggests solutions instead of criticising, judging or putting me down because of the way I am, like previous partners have. Its important to find someone that you can be honest and open about how you feel and who can understand what you are going through and can support you. Initially I was embarrassed about being on the program and didn’t tell any of my friends or work colleagues, thinking they wouldn’t understand, but I couldn’t have been more wrong!
Anyway, where was I….oh yes, so I decided to try again and called the Health & Aesthetics team. I was honest and open on the phone and explained that I had not had a great experience and was apprehensive about doing the program. The receptionist was so friendly and put me at ease straight away, explaining more about the program and the clinic in 10 mins than I had done in 3 hours at the other place.
So, I booked a consultation and met with Dr Tailor a week later. This was reassuring that I was being booked with a medical professional, having come from a health background professionally myself.
On the first consultation I was made to feel so welcome by the staff and felt like a completely different experience. When I met with Dr Tailor, she made me feel very comfortable and explained in detail the medical weight-loss program and how it all worked, using clear diagrams to illustrate certain health factors and why it was important for health to lose weight. She was honest and open and explained that in order for it to work, I needed to stick to the program for it to work and that there will be challenges along the way but that the clinic was there to support me.
Dr Tailor then checked me over physically, discussed the physiological aspects and took my bloods which was swift and pain free! I completed the in-body analysis which takes your weight and shows where the fat has stored in your body. I was surprised how much visceral fat I had around my organs, that’s not good! I was also surprised the percentage that was stored in my arms, not what I expected.
So, the consultation was such a difference experience from my hideous one previously, I walked out feeling full of hope and excitement that this was going to work, finally an answer to my constant battle of the bulge!
Chat soon, Krissy x
Now that I had completed my consultation, I had the go ahead that it was safe for me to start the program! It was reassuring to know that I was medically healthy even though I knew of course my health was being affected significantly by being so overweight. However, having the go ahead was both exciting and very nerve wracking at the same time. There were so many things buzzing around in your head both positive and negative, trying to imagine what it will be like and whether it will work.
I had my first appointment with Alix and she went through in detail about the program and gave me lots of helpful tips to help manage my first week on the program. It was a lot of information to take on and at times I did get a little confused, but I did call the clinic a couple of times for advice and my questions were answered. I also started my treatments that day.
You have two treatments and you have to wear this body suit, kind of feels like a superhero costume, always make me laugh but it’s very comfortable. The first one is an ultrasound treatment which helps assist the breakdown the fat under your skin. These fat cells are stubborn and hard to target through conventional dieting alone. This is completed on your tummy to target the stubborn visceral fat and is lovely and warm and very relaxing, almost sends me to sleep! The second treatment initially feels a bit uncomfortable but after a few sessions begins to feel like a relaxing massage. It can be uncomfortable over certain areas and as the therapists explain, its usually where the cellulite is hardest. Even though its uncomfortable you its breaking down the nasty fat that causes dimples in your thighs, so it’s worth it.
After the treatment I went home and had a good read through the information and started planning my week ahead, with much excitement! It was quite confusing to start with but as I started making up the different packs and getting in a routine of taking my vitamins and minerals, things started to slowly make sense. The trace minerals were disgusting to taste, as Alix had warned me. But I used her tip of sucking on a lemon and that made it much more bearable! It was almost a relief that the decision making of what to eat was taken away, knowing that what I was eating was all planned out. You do have choices in what you eat but having the limitation made it easier for me.
My partner agreed that I would take care of my meals and he would sort out his meals, so that initially I wouldn’t get tempted, which really helped. Obviously when you start, you’re trying different packs to see what you like and don’t like. I loved the omelette and the drinks, I would make the drinks into smoothies, adding lots of ice and whizzing in the blender. I experimented with the hot drinks as cold smoothies and they tasted better cold! I found the pizza mixed smelt strange but actually tasted really yummy, but I wasn’t a fan of the soups or vegetable mince.
I felt quite tired during my first week and had a few headaches, which was normal because I wasn’t drinking as much caffeine but by the weekend that started to pass. Before I knew it, I was back at the clinic to be weighed again and have my treatment again. I was absolutely amazed to learn that I had lost 7lbs in my first week! That was incredible! I had never lost that much weight in a week, I was amazed. During that week I had not felt hungry and had to make sure that I could actually fit all the 5 packs into one day.
Then with each week that passed I found food that I liked and got into a routine and the weight was just falling off…. never thought I would say that! I had lost my first stone within 3 and a half weeks of being on the program. As I got into a routine, I was losing about 3lbs each week. I had more energy, felt more positive and confident that I was in control of my body and had finally found an answer to the problem I had been fighting for years.
When I had lost just over 2 stone about two months into the program, I noticed that my periods were late. So, at this point I need tell you some background information about my personal life. So about 4 years before starting the program, myself and my partner Alistair decided to start trying for a baby. My partner and I were both in our early 40’s. We both have been married before and Alistair has two children from his previous marriage, but I had not reached that point in my previous marriage before we separated, having married quite young.
Within a short while I became pregnant and we were both very excited but unfortunately, I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks in the pregnancy. This was devastating news and concerned me that I was not going to be able to have a child but as I discovered, miscarriage was much more common that I realised, with 1 in 4 pregnancies ending in miscarriage. We tried again, and I became pregnant again within 3 months, but again this was not supposed to be, because I had another miscarriage. This was heart-breaking and the thought of going through this again filled me with dread, but we tried again and another 3 months later I became pregnant for the 3rd time, but yet again this ended in tears and heartbreak with another miscarriage at 9 weeks.
As you can imagine this was such a difficult year and feeling so down and turned to food for comfort and put on about 3-4 stone. We were encouraged to keep trying to get pregnant but after 2 years it never happened again. I had numerous tests to see if something was causing this but the doctors said there was nothing wrong with me and there was no medical reason except that I was aging.
Over time we came to the conclusion that it wasn’t supposed to be and I was happy that I had two beautiful step-daughters in my life and a wonderful partner. I decided to focus on my career by starting a master’s program through university distance learning and working fulltime…crazy! I also decided to focus on being healthy and getting my confidence back, so decided I needed to lose weight and started the weight loss program.
Going back to being 2 months into the program and it going really well, I discovered my period was late and after doing a test realised I was pregnant. I was both excited and very scared at the same time. I felt bad but was also disappointed with the timing because I was doing so well on the program, but it was because I had lost weight that I had become pregnant which Dr Tailor had explained to me. I called the clinic immediately because I was due to have treatment that day and was concerned. Firstly, they congratulated me and then advised me that I had to stop the program immediately and get back in touch again when I was ready to return. I was in complete shock that my life had changed within a matter or hours! I will let you know what happens in my next blog, until next time.
Chat soon, Krissy x
Welcome back! Just a wee recap, I had to leave the program back in May last year because I had become pregnant after a period of 2 years of not being able to become pregnant due to being overweight and I had a history of multiple miscarriages. Due to having the miscarriage history I was closely monitored by the hospital and had scans at 8, 10 and 12 weeks and all looked well until I had to have blood tests at 12 weeks, which showed a high risk of complications.
Then followed numerous blood tests, scans and other investigations including an amniocentesis which brought about significant concern and anxieties about what was wrong. After all the tests were completed, we were told the devastating news that our baby had significant chromosomal deformities and would not survive the pregnancy and we were advised to end the pregnancy because it could also put my own health at risk.
To say this was a heart-breaking decision is an understatement, it just felt like our whole world had collapsed and everything was against us having a baby.
Like all difficult times in my life, I turned to food for comfort and a way to help drown out the pain and sadness. I find that food gives me that instant gratification and pleasure that I am looking for, but it doesn’t last, it’s just a very temporary fix. The feelings afterwards just make you feel worse, the guilt, the anger at yourself for not having any self-control and feeling worse than you did initially. Now that I feel worse, what do I do? Yup you know it…. eat again and eat more! I get caught in this vicious cycle, like so many people do. I know I do this, and I recognise it, but why can’t I stop it? I am a smart, intelligent woman and know it is so stupid to do this to myself, but I just can’t seem to stop. It’s so hard to control the cravings! I suppose it feels like an addiction, I am addicted to food and just can’t seem to stop self-sabotaging. So how do I break the cycle?
I don’t yet have the answer to this question, but I do know that the health & aesthetics team can help me and guide me to finally break it.
Once I was well enough, I went back to the clinic in October last year and went back on the program. The team at the clinic were so welcoming to have me back again and so understanding of my situation, they made me feel so welcome and safe at a time that my self-confidence and self-worth were at an all-time low. I got weighed, the moment I was dreading, and I had put on a stone. I thought it was going to be worse, the 2 stone that I had lost back on and more, but I had only put half back on, so that was positive.
The first week back, I welcomed the structure and focus of the program. I knew what I had to do, I knew what food I liked and go back into a routine very quickly. Again, I made a big loss in the first week and within a few weeks I had lost what I gained. I felt motivated and in control again, which was a great feeling. We were now heading towards December and yet another hurdle, not just Christmas but something I have not yet mentioned was on the horizon.
In January 2018, myself and my partner decided to give ourselves a goal and motivating factor to help us to lose weight and get healthy as part of our new year resolutions. We booked a 4-week holiday to Australia! I initially tried to diet again by myself but as you know that just wasn’t working and I found the Alevere program and started the program at Health & Aesthetics in April 2018.
After my consultation with Dr Tailor, I was shown that I could lose most of my weight by August and reach my goal by Christmas, which was perfect. I would be looking and feeling great in time for our big holiday. I would be able to wear a bikini, something I have not done since I was 13 years old! However, as we know life doesn’t always run according to our plans. Having to come off the program at the start of June and not returning till October due to the pregnancy, that plan had left the building.
Initially with the pregnancy, we thought we would have had to cancel the holiday, but we didn’t, and that was fine we had something else to look forward to. As it came about it was lucky that we hadn’t cancelled the holiday because it still gave us a focus, something to look forward to and just what we needed after such a difficult year.
After 3 months back into the program and having lost 3 stones, I had the dilemma of the holiday, which played on my mind. I was open and honest with the clinic and they knew that I had the holiday booked and they were excited for me but also wanted to make sure that I didn’t undo all the hard work, time and money that I had put into having lost 3 stone and feeling so much happier, confident and in control of my life. The therapists knew that the temptation of being off the diet can be overwhelming and can cause a person to “fall off the wagon”, because it is like or is an addiction and with the situation changing to having structure and boundaries to a free for all, all can collapse.
The therapists were brilliant and gave me lots of advice and suggested slowly coming off the diet by doing level 2 for a week and then level 3, so I could maintain control over the Christmas period before I left for Australia. Usually you can’t take food into Australia, but Dr Tailor offered to write a letter to support me taking the food into Australia, so I could continue the diet. However, I decided I just wanted to enjoy my holiday and decided whilst I was there to enjoy myself but try my best to make healthy choices and continue to exercise to limit the damage. If I put on a few pounds then that was ok, I would get back on track again once I came back and returned to the program. So off to Australia I went on boxing day…..
I will tell you in the next blog how I got on down under!
Chat soon, Krissy x
At the end of the last blog I was discussing going to Australia over the Christmas period and decided to come off the diet whilst I was on holiday. I had my last weigh-in the weekend before Christmas and managed to stay on task until Christmas eve. Christmas is such a difficult time to focus on weight loss, I am sure everyone will agree! It’s like the world is against you and no matter where you turn there is temptation! Everyone is getting in the festive mood and wanting to celebrate, which usually involves food and alcohol…..not a good combination when your trying to lose weight. Work colleagues want to go out to celebrate as a team, friends and family want to catch up and go out for dinner and drinks. I usually give in to Christmas and just let myself enjoy and indulge. I often end up eating and drinking way more than I should, usually not really thinking about what I am putting in my body. This then results in feeling bloated, greedy, frustrated with myself and hideous heartburn. Why I do this to myself I do not know. I say to myself I will lose the weight in January, like many people, I guess! However, I do lose some of the weight but never get to my goal, because before you know it, its Easter and its chocolate temptations. Feels like a constant battle and the weight just keeps piling on!
The week before Christmas, Rena and Alix suggested I do a few days on level 2 and a few days on level 3 before coming off completely, so it was a gradually process and I did. Level 2 is helpful because you can go out to dinner with friends and family but arrange to have something like a grilled chicken breast with green salad or vegetables for example, which still keeps you in ketosis. No alcohol though, but that’s manageable and much easier to get home in the cold! I was able to go to my work Christmas bash and not feel left out of the festive celebrations. Christmas day I had decided that I was going to allow myself to have what others were having but not go crazy like I would normally. I did find I was able to recognise when I was full and so was able to stop before eating too much. We also went for a long walk to ensure we did some exercise to try to burn some calories.
We flew to Australia on Boxing day and my aim was to ensure I exercised at least 4 times a week and make healthy choices where I could. I didn’t want to waste all the effort and money I had out into losing the 3 stone I had lost. I did what I set out to do and my Partner Alistair was very supportive, we got up and went for a run in the morning or to the gym at the hotel. I never usually exercise on holiday, so this was a real change for me. I see holidays again as a time to indulge and relax (bit of a pattern here!) However, I found I made more of the day and felt so much better for having done the exercise and felt proud of myself that I had made a change.
We were away for just over 3 weeks and I would say I did exercise for the majority of the first 2 weeks but things started to reduce on the 3rd week, especially when the draw of the holiday was coming to an end. I was starting to stray from the healthy choices and slipping back into old habits. This continued once we got home to the dark, cold and wet! The holiday blues were setting in and the motivation to exercise slipped away very quickly with the jet lag. Unfortunately, I hadn’t booked my sessions at the clinic in advance and I couldn’t get an appointment until 2 weeks after we had returned home. But I did make plans and ensured I had enough Alevere food. A few days after getting back I started back on the plan but struggled to keep motivated and kept being tempted to stray from the path. The week before I was due to attend the clinic my old habits were coming back with a vengeance, I was eating lots of biscuits and cakes especially at work. I feel I put more weight on during this period, than when I did in Australia.
I was happy to finally get back to the clinic and get weighed because I knew it would get me back on track. I was weighed and I had put on a stone in 6 weeks! Wow! And not in a good way. I was so annoyed at myself but at the same time I had enjoyed my holiday, which wasn’t a type of holiday I would do regularly. I picked myself up and managed to get through my first week and stay on track with a reward of losing at the end of that week. It then got easier again as I got back into my routine and I am managed to get that stone back off in 4 weeks.
On one of Western Australian beautiful beaches, not quite ready for a bikini yet, but maybe this summer?
Rena is my main therapist because I have sessions mainly on Saturday and she has been with me on this rollercoaster ride this past year. I felt I had not only let myself down but the team therapists too. But Rena and Alix helped me to pick myself up again and helped motivate me, support me and made me smile when times were tough. I look forward to my sessions at the clinic every week, knowing I will have lost more weight and I can relax and be myself. I also know I will have someone there to talk through the tough times with the program and life!
Now we are now up-to-date with my journey thus far and I am back at the point of 3 stone loss, which given the journey I have had, really is amazing. I still have far to go but I know I can do it with the support from the team at the clinic.
Join me next week to see how things have gone this fortnight.
Chat soon, Krissy x
With no more major holidays on the horizon, its time to knuckle down and full steam ahead with the weight loss. Just as a recap in regard to weight, I was 115.5kg when I started the program and just before I left for Australia, I had got down to 93kg. I am now at my lowest weight so far at 92.8kgs, which feels great! Feeling motivated to keep going as my goal is about 62kg, only about 30kgs to go!!
During the lead up to leaving for Australia at Christmas time, I was s
o motivated to workout and do exercise, because I had a goal. However, since returning to the program, I am really struggling with getting motivated to exercise. I am motivated to do the program and have no issues with the food side of the program, but I have noticed that my weight loss has been slightly less these past weeks, compared to previously when I was exercising more. I was completing exercise with work colleagues twice a week and working out with my partner at home or going jogging at least another 2 or 3 times. However, these past few weeks I have only being doing 2 cardio types of exercise and a long walk at the weekend……which is not enough to help budge the weight more quickly. So, I need a change as my previous routine is no longer working for me. My partner and I have decided to join a gym. It took quite a bit or research to find the best value and one that offered classes that we would both enjoy. I know I will need incentive to go to a gym, because I have tried them before, and the motivation soon dwindled. This was probably due to the fact that I was working out hard but not losing weight, which was due to eating all the wrong foods and not being able to stick to a diet! So, we have joined a gym and have our induction next week. I feel like I have a plan now and will keep you posted on how it goes.
It was a learning curve having come off the program for my holiday. It made me realise that my habits are still there in the background, just waiting to come out! Talking it through with Rena and Alix, they highlighted that its not just losing the weight. It is maintaining those good habits you have developed on the program and incorporating them into your new lifestyle. I find the program quite easy to follow because it is all planned for you. You get to make choices, but you are limited in what you can choose, definitely not naughty treats! But there are some treats, I like the puddings and the bars because I still feel like I am having a treat and it’s not naughty! It’s when you are out in the big wide world that the options are endless and it is very difficult to make those healthy choices. Especially when temptation is all around you. Alix recommends that planning is key and if you plan, you are more likely to make the healthier choices. Very wise words. I know I am not at that stage yet, but just having this little break has made me aware I need to think about the long term, not just the initial weight loss.
Currently I find planning really helps me stay on track at the moment too. I plan all my work lunches on a Sunday and batch cook and freeze them. I mainly use only unlimited vegetables, so that I know where I am with my daily amount of these types of vegetables or fruit. Then I tend to have some fruit after my lunch and include the rest of my allowance in the evening meal.
Sometimes I have different vegetables and sometimes fruit, depending on what mood I am in, which allows me to vary my options. I don’t like to plan my evening meals because I go with what I feel like on the night and they usually don’t take long to prepare. If I feel like a pudding, I will cook up a vegetable stir fry and use lots of seasoning to jazz it up and then have a pudding with raspberries or strawberries. I love putting beetroot in my stir-fry’s, just gives it a different flavour and colour! Rena and Alix are emphasising the importance or changes what you have, it is really important to try different things so that you have a variety and don’t get bored. I really need to try more of Alix’s recipes, they always look really good and you can access them on the website or see them in the clinic. I haven’t been very adventurous and just stick to what I know and like but from now on I am going to try a recipe each fortnight and see what they are like…..will let you know how I get on.
Chat soon, Krissy x
Well another fortnight has passed, and the weight is steadily creeping off, I am now 90.4 kg’s, so a step closer to my goal and feeling good. The Health & Aesthetics medical weight loss program works in different stages, initially you start level one which is when you lose most of your weight and is the strictest part of the program. In level 1 you lose 70% of your weight before you move onto level 2. I need to reach 75kg to then transition onto level 2, which then starts to introduce some food back in such as chicken and white fish. In order to reach this stage I have another 15.4kgs to go! It is motivating to have smaller goals to work towards, instead of thinking how much more you have to do in total. As that can feel a bit overwhelming at times and feels like you will never get there. I have lost a total of 21.1 kgs and I know my long-term goal is to reach 62kgs, so another 28.4kgs to go, which feels quite daunting, so having a smaller goal to consider really helps.
Last time I wrote I had decided to join a gym. When I had my last in-body test, my muscle mass was reducing because I was not doing enough exercise. When I was in Australia I was doing more exercise and my muscle mass had increased and so my target weight had changed to having slightly less to lose, but when I came back and was a not exercising the muscle mass started to reduce and hence the weight goal changed back to having to lose more to my goal weight. This was one of my motivators to get exercising, not only will I have to lose less but having a higher metabolism due to higher muscle mass means more calorie allowance! Which is an incentive for me to work out!
My partner also decided to join the gym, so it has been motivating having a buddy to go along with. I would recommend trying to team up with someone to exercise with, it really helps on those days when you really don’t feel like it. I arrange to go on long walks with friends and try to do walks that have some hills to make it more of a challenge and get my heart rate up! It’s great, you can catch up on the gossip, moan about things that are bothering you or be there to give a friend advice, as well as helping to speed up the weight loss and dust the cobwebs off to improve your mental health not just the physical.
The first week at the gym, we got a little too excited, wanting to try all the different types of sessions and equipment and ended up doing a little too much! My muscles felt like they were never going to stop aching! Even sitting on the toilet made my leg muscles shout out with displeasure. But I am sure it will get easier and less uncomfortable as my body gets used to it. I must admit, I feel I have so much more energy after I have exercised. You assume you will be exhausted, but it actually does the opposite. It is amazing how different I feel now when I exercise compared to last year. Having lost 3 stone, it seems obvious to say but I feel so much lighter and just walking or light exercises feels so much easier. I used to get so breathless when just walking and it often felt unpleasant and such an effort at times. I just used to focus on trying to get it over and done with and when it would be over. However, now I can walk and talk without getting breathless at the same time. I no longer focus on how hard it feels but how good I feel and I really enjoy being active now.
I have my birthday and Easter coming up in the next fortnight, which I must admit feels a bit rubbish because I know I will not be able to celebrate like I usually do with a lovely fancy meal out and lots of chocolate and alcohol treats. But I am feeling very motivated at the moment because I feel I am making great progress and the best to date. I need to make some plans to keep myself busy and take the emphasis away from food. So I have decided to do something I haven’t done for years and head to the Zoo for a day out! I know too it is something my two step daughters will enjoy too and it’s a excuse for a family trip to London.
I have noticed that many of our celebrations revolve around food and it was often my excuse to over-indulge during these times but instead of just having a day or two of treats, I would often extend that a further few days or weeks…not really considering the consequences of what I was doing to my body. It made me feel better at the time, so surely it can’t be that bad for me?
I am finding that my mentality is starting to change and I am seeing food more as a important nutrients and energy for my body, rather than just pleasure. Which I think is a big step for me, it is often difficult to take yourself out of a situation and see things from a different perspective. I feel the Health & Aesthetics medical weightloss program certainly allows you to do this. It not only allows you to recognise your habits and pit falls but allows you to see food and healthy living from a whole new perspective. I am hoping will help me in keeping all this weight off permanently and living a much healthier and happy lifestyle.
Finally, one thing I have discovered is that I have not been eating enough for breakfast. I thought the white egg omelette was just a choice that you could have and I would sometimes have it at the weekend. However, I realised through Rena that I was supposed to be having the omelette nearly every morning, I had misinterpreted the booklet. I usually add mushrooms and spinach to the mix with the 50g of unlimited vegetables and buy a carton of egg whites so I don’t waste the yolks or get messy cracking eggs open every morning. Rena advised me that it is best to have the omelette in the morning but if you do not have the chance, you can add a boiled egg (remove the egg yolk and add it to your lunch. So, its part of my morning routine now and I know I am getting that extra bit of protein which helps me feel fuller for longer.
I didn’t have a chance to try out any new recipes like I said I would, but I will try some over the next couple of weeks and let you know how I get on. I will also feedback how I survived my birthday and Easter!
Chat soon, Krissy x
This is me and Alistair just outside Sydney. I really don’t like this picture because I feel I still look so overweight, even though I actually felt great at the time because I had still lost 3 stone at that point. I hate having my photo taken because of this and as a result there are not many pictures of me on holiday….but I am hoping this will change!
I survived Easter, yeah, but I ran into trouble on my birthday!
It was my 45th birthday and I had prepared myself that it would be a quiet birthday this year, no bubbles to drink or chocolate cake. However, I knew I had to distract myself and enjoy my birthday with something that did not revolve around food or drink. So we decided to go to London zoo with my two step daughters and my partner. We prepared our lunches and had them on the train, the omelette is good for picnics and lunch on the go with chopped finger salad food- pepper, carrots, cucumber, celery etc and some fruit for a sweet treat. I took a chocolate bar with me and had it with a coffee at the zoo when we stopped for a break and some treats for the girls. It was a lovely day out, we all had great fun and did lots of walking in the process, clocked up 15, 000 steps on my fit-bit. Fit-bits are a great incentive to get your body moving. It monitors your fitness levels and records activity in calories, you can record your food and weight in it too and it just helps motivate you to improve your fitness, I would definitely recommend a gadget like this.
In in the evening I had enjoyed my day but it was getting late and we had to feed the girls, to cut a long story short I ended up having dinner out with the family. I tried to make sensible choices with what I had and had a glass of wine. I knew it would take me out of ketosis and put me back, but I made the decision and I did enjoy it and decided that I wouldn’t beat myself up, I would enjoy it, acknowledge it, but get straight back on the program in the morning. Which I did…. Not something I usually do it terms of the program, I have never “cheated” on the program because I don’t want to slow down my progress but also the cost of it, you end up wasting a weeks work and payment! But also in the past I would say to myself “oh I had broke my diet one night, I might as well have another day” and then that turns into weeks, and I end up then putting on more weight and the dreaded cycle continues.
This time I was determined that was not going to happen and thankfully I did not have any uncomfortable body reactions to jumping in and out of ketosis but certainly not recommended. Thankfully I have managed to lose weight still, not as much as I could have if I was in ketosis but now down to 88kg and 13kgs before I change to level 2 of the program…counting down continues.
Easter, I managed to distract myself with spring cleaning and getting out in the wonderful sunshine. The weather was gorgeous over the long weekend, it felt like summer. I also made sure I had some Medical Weight Loss chocolate treats to ensure I did not feel I was missing out. This included the chocolate pudding, chocolate bars and I usually turn the hot chocolate into an iced smoothie (I prefer this to having it as a hot drink- just blend with water and lots of ice…yummie!). I often find I really over indulge at this time of year because my birthday and Easter are always near each other.
This is the 2nd most challenging time of the year when you’re on a weight loss program, with Christmas being number one! I often end up eating and drinking too much, as I felt that this was what celebrating was all about. However, this Easter I was content with my Medical Weight Loss treats because I knew that having changed my eating habits, it was making such a difference to how I feel physically, mentally and emotionally. I also felt very guilty and annoyed at myself for coming out of ketosis for my birthday! However, a spring clean turned out to be a great motivator, because I had stored all my old summer clothes that I used to be able to fit into, sizes 12 through to 18 away.
The last time I wore a size 12 was 15 years ago when I was 30 years old, the weight has just slowly crept on and yo yo’d since then. So I had a good sort out of my wardrobe and managed to give away to charity lots of clothes that were now too big….that it such a great feeling! I was also be able to fit into some of my previous clothes, sizes 16 and some 14’s, that was exhilarating and tearful at the same time. I really have noticed a change in my body now, my belts are now too big, I have gone down sizes in my uniform at work and people are commenting more on how good I look. It’s certainly motivating me to keep going and get to my end goal.
Usually at this time of year, the weather is starting to brighten up and brings thoughts of summer. You would think the thought of summer coming would fill me will joy but it usually had the opposite effect and I would dread it. To me it brought thoughts of exposing more of my body that I felt uncomfortable about, no longer able to hide under jumpers or coats. I would usually struggle to fit in my summer clothes from last year which would bring tears and feeling of self-hatred, guilt and frustration that I cannot control my eating habits. I couldn’t wear skirts or lovely dresses without having to wear cycling shorts because my legs would rub and chaff, which would be quite painful. I would often feel uncomfortable in my own skin and constantly worrying about how I looked at social events and couldn’t wait to get them over and done with instead of being able to relax and enjoy myself.
This is all changing this year, after fitting into my summer clothes and knowing I will be lighter and wearing hopefully a size 14/12 by the summer fills me with joy. We have a holiday booked in July and I am really looking forward to being able to wear nice clothes and feel good about myself, which will mean I can actually relax and completely enjoy my holiday. This weight loss program is certainly making such a difference to my life and making me happier. I remember reading about the program before I started it and reading other people’s comments on how the program changed their lives and how much happier they felt. Deep down I did not believe it and did not feel I would ever feel like that, but now that I am saying it, it certainly feels amazing! I just wish I had done it sooner and avoided years of unhappiness, but better late than never!
Chat soon, Krissy x
A few weeks have passed, and more weight gone for good! I am now 84Kgs, 27 kgs gone…that’s just over 4 stone…wow! I cannot believe I have lost that much weight and much closer to my goal. My goal does feel a little way off still, but nowhere near as far as when I started! I still have about 20kgs to go, so I’m over half-way now. I have noticed that my weight loss fluctuates at times and can be a bit disheartening. Usually a couple of weeks in a row I tend to just lose 0.5 to 0.7kgs and then the following weeks it will be between 1 and 2 kgs. I try to look at the month as an average rather than weekly to help keep myself motivated.
It is natural for the weight to vary but having been so focused on weight loss over the years, it can be soul destroying to step on the scales and not see the loss you hoped for despite all your hard efforts…..but my advice would be: be patient and stick to the regime and you will lose, but look at it from a wider perspective. One of the latest fitness gurus refers to the scales as the “sad step” and I totally get this. My mood can plummet so badly after stepping on the scales at home….so now I don’t do it anymore. No matter how tempting it is, I just weight myself at the clinic and not outside this. Our body weight fluctuates daily and not seeing the bigger picture by stepping on the scales too often, can impact on your mood and then have a ripple effect on your motivation. I know in the past it has been an easy reason to sabotage my efforts but not this time!
There have been a few changes with the treatments within the program. The Accent Prime Ultrasound and the LPG machines are very different, and you can certainly feel the difference! The LPG machine feels like it is really taking hold of your skin and helping to tighten that skin much more than it did previously. Also, it’s more concentrated on the parts of your body that really need it. The ultrasound with Accent Prime feels much softer and less cold initially, much better! I will be interested to see if my trunk fat on the in-body has changed because the therapists tell me it is making quite difference for people. The last time I had my in-body, my weight loss had slowed a little and I was getting a little worried because I had not done anything different. However, I had been exercising much more than I usually did because I had joined the gym and the in-body showed that my muscle mass had increased and the weeks that followed, I started to lose more again.
I am reaching a stage where I feel a bit complacent. I feel so much better about how I feel and how much weight I have lost. However, sometimes it is difficult to remember that I still have a few stone to go to reach my healthy weight. At times, I think to myself, oh I could just stop now, I am so much healthier. But I know that I would surely slip back into my old habits and the weight would creep back on quickly. I feel I need to be as far away from my starting point as I can and reach my healthy weight because I certainly do not won’t want to go back there! It has been a hard journey and not at all easy (even though much easier than many other weight loss programs I have been on!)
It’s certainly not all plain sailing and it takes a lot of will power and determination to stay on plan at times, especially at social events or when you have had a particularly bad day. But I just keep reminding myself it’s not permanent, I will be able to have more choice soon. I also see how much more energy I have by eating healthy and I don’t’ want to go back to my old ways of eating too much unhealthy food and feeling rubbish….
I need to get to my goal and learn how to maintain that with a health balanced diet and not forget how much happier I feel and it will just get even better the closer I get to my goal!
Until next time, bye for now and keep going, we can do it!
Well it’s been an interesting couple of weeks with lots of emotional ups and downs! I reached my lowest weight of 83.5kgs and I was super chuffed with my progress but then it all went a little bit wrong. I’m not sure if you noticed from my last blog, I was feeling a bit unmotivated and a little fed up, Rena and Emma certainly noticed and were a little concerned and I guess they were right to be.
I was chatting to Rena this weekend and we were talking about how my mood can be a trigger to seeking comfort through food, a very common problem. Whether I am stressed, feeling sad or worrying about something, food is usually my go-to for comfort or a little instant gratification to try to escape from the issues I might be facing. Recently life has been quite stressful and problematic, and this is what has impacted my ability to stay on plan. My weight loss journey has been a quite a bit longer than it should have been originally due to unsuccessful pregnancies and a long holiday in Australia. As a result, I have been on the program for over a year now, but that’s life, it’s never pain sailing!
The last few weeks, I was really starting to feel pretty fed up with lots of things in my life. Life has been a bit tricky at the moment, as you may know I am studying for my masters as well as working full-time. Currently I am in the middle of a module and it’s a tough one with lots of work to do and as a result has been quite stressful. I have a large assignment due in four weeks and it is not progressing as well as I would like. Alongside this I am not enjoying my job and every day feels a bit of a struggle. It’s not my career as such, it’s just the place in which I work at the moment. I have only been there a year and starting to feel I made a bad decision in moving from my last job, despite learning a lot in the last year. However, this is something I can control and can change. I am in the process of looking for a new job and have a couple of interviews lined up. In my job, interviews are like exams and you could get asked a number of questions about lots of different scenarios, so that means lots of revision and more study! Not really my ideal scenario at the moment but its what’s needed to change things.
I am not telling you all my woes for you to feel sorry for me (even though it does feel good to have a vent!) but to demonstrate that life has multiple layers and life’s events can build up and weigh us down literally. It is the way that we deal with our life stresses and how they make us feel which ultimately ends up impacting on our weight. Having an unhealthy relationship with food, means we use it as a temporary fix, but it just ends up making our problems worse, even though at the time it makes it feel better. So how do we fix our relationship with food? Not an easy answer but being on the program will certainly help us!
A couple of weeks ago, as you can imagine everything just came to a head and I just felt like a needed a break from everything. So, when my partner said he had a surprise weekend away planned for us, I was so excited! He must have noticed I needed a break too! Hope I wasn’t too grumpy with him! During this weekend away, I decided to take full break from everything, even the weight loss program. I just needed a change and wanted to eat “normal” food, not necessarily unhealthy things that I have not been able to have but healthy food such as different fruit and fish. I knew the consequences of my situation and that it would cause me to come out of ketosis and slow down my already slowed progress but at that moment I felt I needed it and I don’t think anyone could have changed my mind.
When you do have a break from the program, for whatever reason, it’s like when you have one biscuit from the packet, it’s hard to stop there and before we know it you’ve eaten half or all the biscuits! Then the guilt and disappointment kicks in, which I have certainly talked about previously in my blog. But this time around, after having my weekend off plan and I got straight back on track on the Monday. We had a social event planned that coming weekend and I managed to stay on track and enjoy my weekend despite the temptations. It was such a fun weekend; it was a wedding celebration but a fancy-dress theme. The theme being anything British, so myself and my partner both dressed up in RAF uniforms but with a 40’s feel. I don’t usually feel confident enough to dress up in fancy dress but having lost lots of weight my confidence is so much better, and I was really excited this time. I felt quite nervous initially but once at the party we got lots of compliments and it was lovely to hear so many positives about how well I was looking and how different I looked having lost so much weight…it was a real confidence booster.
That’s it for now but will continue this story next time, until then by for now and here’s a photo of us dressed up,
Love Krissy x
Picking up from the last blog, I was talking to you about my ‘hiccup’ as I like to call it. I had come off plan due to life being particularly stressful and I was talking about the issues this had raised. One of them being how mood impacts on our weight loss and can often act as a trigger to going off on the wrong path. It got me thinking about my relationship with food and how it’s not only the low moments that I turn to food, it’s also the happy ones….birthdays, wedding, new jobs, new house….any old excuse to eat and drink and be merry! This makes it really difficult to take control of what we put in our mouths. However, this journey has certainly made me think before I drink and think about what foods I am eating and if it’s any good for my body and how it will make me feel physically and emotionally. It’s certainly a process of discovery losing weight and I am hoping to learn how to control my eating and start to make the right choices more of the time.
In the last blog I talked about a surprise weekend organised by my partner, which meant that I was not able to attend my weekly appointment at the clinic and did not have a session booked the following week due to a social event. So as a result, I didn’t attend the clinic for 3 weeks and this made me realise just how important the weekly sessions are to keep you focused and on track. It’s so much easier to come off the tracks when you don’t have the support around you.
Unfortunately, I had another hiccup the following week. The Thursday before I was due to attend the clinic, a day before one of my interviews, I had a bit of a meltdown, because I was feeling so overwhelmed and just had too much going on in my life…I put way too much pressure on myself, I am sure many of you do too. I just felt like I couldn’t manage the diet on top of all the other issues I had to deal with. As a result I came off plan again, which is so unlike me and after a day I knew I had to decide, whether I stick with the program or give up…but I know all too well that if I was to give up, the weight would soon pile back on because I have not dealt with the issues that actually cause me to over eat and also learn how to manage my weight and learn how I can eat without putting it all back on and undoing all this hard work….literally blood, sweat and tears!
The next day things changed for the better, I managed to get the job that I had an interview for on the Friday and I noticed a dramatic change in my mood. I felt like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I realised how unhappy my job had been making me feel. The thought that things were going to change for the better, made me feel so happy and I felt motivated again to get back on track and felt positive that I could do this…..keep on the plan that is.
On reflection with Rena, once I did make it back to the clinic, we chatted about all of this and how psychologically we need to be able to deal with the challenges that come with not only losing the weight but keeping it off. I can’t keep running to food to help fix my problems and mood. Rena suggested a referral to a psychologist, which is part of MediWeight program. Initially I was a little doubtful because I had tried counselling for this issue before, but the counsellor was not trained in dealing with these issues and low and behold it didn’t really help. But knowing the counselling is linked to a weight loss program, I am hopeful that they might be able to help me deal with my relationship with food finally alongside the program. So, I am going to give a go and will let you know how I get on.
When I returned to the clinic, I had put on weight, I had gone from 83.5kgs to 85.1kgs, gain of 1.6kgs which wasn’t too bad, so I was back on track to get this weight off and continue to head towards my goal.
That’s all for now, until next time,
Bye for now,
Hope your all having a lovely summer and hopefully enjoying some fab holidays! Life has been a little heavy these past few months, sorry if I have been a bit doom and gloom, but I guess we all have our ups and downs. I suppose in a way It’s reassuring to know that not everyone has an easy ride at losing weight, it’s certainly a journey! I am getting back on track and even with a holiday to France I have managed to get back down to 83.7 kgs. It’s been great having a break from work and study and enjoying the warm weather…just hope it lasts! This summer has certainly been more enjoyable compared to others these past few years. I am enjoying going shopping again and not dreading the stress of trying on clothes. It’s exciting that I know I can wear shorts and feel comfortable and cool. I am not having to try and cover myself because I am embarrassed about my size or the shape of my body.
On holiday in France I was able to wear some lovely summer dresses and it felt great! I have always been paranoid about my arms, because that is where I stored much of my weight and would never buy dresses that did not have sleeves, but that changes this summer and it really did feel fab! I also feel confident wearing colours now, sounds strange but I would always wear dark colours because they are supposed to make you feel slimmer but now it’s exhilarating to wear beautiful colours and be free from the dark and dreary! Even on my first photo taken at Health & Aesthetics I was wearing all black!
Whilst on holiday I made a plan to exercise because as you may know from my previous blogs, I was never one to exercise on holiday before I lost weight on MediWeight……a holiday in my eyes was eat, drink and be merry and end up putting on lots of weight. So being determined to stick to making lifestyle changes and trying to keep them going because its important for when I do finish the diet and able to maintain my weight loss. Myself and my partner took our running gear with us and before breakfast we would get up and go for a little jog, nothing too strenuous but a good way to start the day and feel more energised. The holiday site we went to had activities that you could join in, I had not previously taken part on our previous holidays but feeling more confident, I decided to give them a go. I managed to persuade my stepdaughter to come to a Zumba class with me, which we both really enjoyed and felt full of life after.
We also decided to go kayaking as a family, I have never done this before I was quite nervous but really wanted to try it. Previously being quite large, I was too nervous because I was paranoid that the boat would sink and I would be humiliated…. I usually like to catastrophise things! Alistair, the girls and I all went and initially it was nerve wracking but once we got in the flow it was amazing. It was sunny, the water was calm and clear and even thought it was quite hard work paddling, it was also relaxing…we were all singing songs at one point! Great day out and great memories. Its moments like this that I am proud I have managed to come this far and make such a change to my health and lifestyle.
I know I still have a way to go but I am getting there and like I said it’s a journey and I am continually learning along the way how I can make more healthy choices. These choices not only improve my health but are also making my life so much more fulfilling and fun.
We just need to keep going, we can do this and make such a difference to our lives.
Until next time,
Bye for now,
5 stone of weight gone! What an achievement and what a life changing experience it has been!
It’s difficult to truly explain the changes I have experienced since I have lost this weight, but it really has changed my life for the better. I am so much happier, healthier and have so much more energy and confidence. It has been lovely being able to share my story with you and I hope it has given people some comfort and reassurance that you’re not alone and it is possible to make changes for the better with this program. So, it is time for me to leave the program which is the next exciting stage in my journey but sadly means this will be my last blog. I know this is not the end of my journey and this is probably going to be the most difficult part, going out into the big wide world, but I feel I will have the knowledge and support from the clinic to do this. It seems a long time now, from the day I first walked into the clinic not knowing what to expect and very nervous. I was at the biggest I had ever been at 113kg, when I joined the health & aesthetics clinic in April 2018. Weight wise I was my heaviest, but I was at my lowest in terms of my mental health. I was clinically depressed; I had lost so much confidence and my self-esteem had hit rock bottom. I couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror without being disgusted at what I had done to myself. Guilt, hatred, anxiety, misery, anger and so many other negative soul-destroying feelings and thoughts everyday all due to the fact that I was not able to control my eating and therefore, my weight.
Like lots of other people struggling with controlling their weight, I had tried every diet under the sun and had lost weight but then ended up putting it all back on and more. But then things completely changed when I found the Health & Aesthetics clinic and the Medi-Weight program. If you have read some of my blogs, you will know it has not been a completely smooth and easy journey, but life never is! I have learnt that it is how we deal with the challenges we face and who we face it with, that makes all the difference.
I remember attending the clinic one day recently and a lady who was waiting to start the program asked me what the program was like. The best way I could explain to her was that it was “life changing!”. I really wanted to encourage her to do the program because I know it really works. She asked me if I ever felt hungry? I suppose with many diets you do feel hungry and you end up eating to kerb that hunger and cravings. I explained to her that you don’t feel hungry because you are eating throughout the day and fuelling your body, which is a very different perspective to starving it. Your body is getting all the nutrients and minerals it needs and makes you feel so healthy and full of energy.
When I look back on life when I was very over-weight, life was very different. Everyday was a struggle in terms of energy, I was so tired all the time and when I did do any activity it was so tiring, and I would get breathless very easily. Even tying my shoes, picking something up from the floor or going up a set of stairs was difficult. Now without carrying all that weight I make myself take the stairs because I know I can do it and enjoy doing exercise to the point that I am out of breath because I know now that I am getting fitter and healthier. Exercise has become both an important part of my life now because it helps me feel physically and mentally healthier. I want to try new types of sports such as kayaking or rowing due to my new found confidence and know that it will only enrich my life further. I don’t hate going clothes shopping anymore and now enjoy it, I don’t shy away from social events, my weight is not constantly consuming my thoughts worrying that people are looking and judging me. My confidence is back, my self-esteem is climbing, and I feel like the real me again. So, at this moment in time, the last thing I want to do is go back to that person I was. Therefore, I really need be careful now and continue to eat healthy and sensibly, but how do I do that?
One big step I have taken is that I have started counselling sessions with the psychologist recommended by Medi-weight. She has years of experience of helping people manage and maintain weight loss and I feel I need to address the real cause for my over-eating to prevent me slipping back into my old habits. Which included sabotaging my weight loss, binge eating, eating in secret and tackle this head-on by learning strategies to manage these issues. I have discovered that these are very common problems that both men and women have in relation to food and I wasn’t alone or going crazy! I have also learnt that there is lots of help and support out there to tackle and control these issues, especially at Health & Aesthetics. So, this will be a different experience during my journey for me, but one I need to do to ensure I don’t go back to being that very unhappy person I was and stay as the very happy person I am now.
Here are some tips and advice if you are starting journey or if you are in the middle of it to help you:
- Don’t be afraid to be open and honest, the therapists and doctor are there to help and they cannot truly help you if they don’t have all the information…..your not alone!
- Sticking to the program is essential and you soon get into a habit and routine, but if you feel you are getting a little bored…..talk to the therapists, they have lots of ideas, advice and inspiration to help you change things to keep you motivated and on track.
- If you do come off the plan, get back on it as soon as possible, the longer you delay it the harder it is to get back on it…..so be strong and bold, think of that end goal and keep going.
- Have a clear goals and reward yourself for when you get to these goals, non-food related rewards are best such a spa day, massage, theatre trip, going to see your favourite comedian…..there is so much out there, go and enjoy and reward yourself for the changes you are making.
The Health & Aesthetics team are truly amazing, especially Doctor Taylor, Rena, Alix & Charlotte who run the Medi-weight program and all the amazing team who keep the clinic running smoothly. Everyone is always friendly, caring and very professional. They always make me feel so welcome and I will miss seeing them every week because they have become part of my life this past year. Especially Rena & Alix, who’s knowledge and understanding of the program and what you are going through is absolutely amazing. They were always there to help answer any questions, provide support and encourage me to keep going forward when things felt tough. I will miss Rena’s weekly chats about the silly dramas in life and are love for Outlander (Scottish heritage!). I would like to take this opportunity to say a big massive thank you to you all, you are all such an amazing team and you really are making such a difference to people’s lives….thank you so much.
If you are thinking about the doing the program, don’t just think about it, do it! You will be so much happier and healthier……what more do you need?
Take care and good luck with your journey,
Bye for now
Krissy is currently a patient on the medically led weight loss program at Health & Aesthetics. Here are some photos from before her journey:
This is an older photo of me back in 2012 (On the left) when I was about 13 stone and was feeling overweight at that time but I then slowly crept up the weight to 17.5 stone in 2017 and then really felt overweight.
This was me on my 39th birthday, when the weight was creeping up. I was hoping by my 40th birthday I would be much lighter but another year past and then weight went up instead of down with continual yo-yo dieting.
This was me on my 40th birthday with my mum, sister and aunty and with my dad on the right. The whole family struggles to keep control of their weight and have watched my family also continually yo-yo diet. I felt very confident and happy on my birthday but when I saw the photos I was so disappointed at how big I actually looked.
Another photo from my 40th Birthday
This is my partner and my two step Children. My partner understands how much being overweight bothers me and how it impacts on my confidence and happiness. He too struggled with being overweight as a child and can empathise with the way it impacts on your life. He has been my rock through the program and was even the one who found out about the program and suggested it to me because at the time I was so unhappy and struggling to find a way of losing weight successfully.
Myself and my partner both love our food and I would often arrange afternoon teas, meals out and weekends away that revolved around food and alcohol. Which was fun at the time but then I would feel unhappy because I was sabotaging my weight loss and just kept going around in circles!
Friend visited from Australia in 2015 and went on a tour of London, felt very self-conscious about my weight because we hadn’t seen each other for a few years and my weight had crept up since. However, that didn’t bother my friend, she was just happy to see me, but in my mind I frustrated at myself and it consumed my thoughts about what I looked like.
This photo was taken in 2015 on one of the hottest days of the year with my two step daughters. I look happy in the photo but felt so overweight in the hot weather. However, the girls have been supportive since I started the program and always praise me that I am doing well and look so much better…..certainly gives you a boost to keep going.